Dear Adama,
Dear Super Shy,
No one that matters actually
cares about that shit.The end.
But seriously.Girl.If a
man's interest wanes solely because he feels you have slept with "too
many people," that man is NOT for you. You are not responsible for
tucking any man's (or woman's) misogyny into bed at night.
Think about
the first time someone communicated to you that your worth was stored between
your thighs. Think about how much the world loves to police women's sexuality.
Now remind yourself that not ONE of these judgment mongers is paying ANY of
your bills. (And if they are, shit, you can pay your own damn bills!
#girlpower)
Let me break
it down for you.Here is a list (non-exhaustive) of things that DO NOT affect
your worth:
1.Your sexual
history and/or experience
2.Your sexual
orientation
3.Your number
of sex partners
4.How you use
sex ( be it for pleasure, for procreation, to build intimacy, or to kill
time!)
What does determine your worth? The fact that you are a living,
feeling creature. Period. Your
potential to rock a man's (or anyone's) world is sooo much deeper than your
sexual history. And your value is in no way tied to your chastity.You were born
worthy. And no one can strip you of your right to #livedeliciously without your
consent. So stop consenting to that mess! I mean, it's important for a
potential partner to know how many times you have been tested for (or diagnosed
with) a sexually transmitted infection. And it may even be important to know
how many other people you are dating at once. But to ask for a
rundown of your past lovers? Sounds unnecessary. And insecure.
Your
partnerships should be built around trust, respect, attraction, and
compatibility, not around a checklist of archaic standards. I get it. When a
woman decides to own and explore her sexuality with multiple partners, she runs
the risk of being labeled dirty, slutty, or a"thot" (acronym for
"That Ho Over There"). And that shit is exhausting. But the key
to #livingdeliciously is deciding that other people's approval is not needed or
requested. I won't speak for men, because I'm not one. But I'll stand for
you and say that there is no prize for self-abuse! You're telling
yourself a story and then building your life around it.Stop judging
yourself for something that you can't change. And stop re-playing the shame
tapes of how un-wifeable you are once you hit a certain number of sex partners.
No
one has to know how many people you have had sex with. And if they do know,
your validation does not rest in their opinion of you.
Leave
your past in the past and your self-judgment at the door. Accept your sexual
history, enjoy your sexual present, and empower yourself for your sexual
future. You are fabulous. And sexy. And worthy of all the love you want
for yourself. All that other shit is for the birds. Go get yours and stop
waiting for permission!
Love,
Dama